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FF buatan ADAYA :

1. The Greatest Season Series   (Contemporer Romance)

2. Beauty and The Beast Series (Historical Romance)

  • (SooWon)(KyuNa) Dere To Temp a Duke Series (With Nidya)Chapter 1 Chapter 2 : Chapter 3 : Chapter 4 : Chapter 5 : Chapter 6 [END] | –> (ONGOING)

3. Silence Cry Series (Hideous Romance)

4. Being Married and Happy Series

5. Baby Don’t Cry Series 

  • [SOOWON] Baby Don’t Cry : | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 (END) |
  • [KYUYOUNG] Baby Don’t Cry : | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6 (END) |–> (ONGOING)

Note : Fan Fiction yang sudah memiliki chapter tapi link mati bertanda FF belom di pos :). Khusus untuk Baby don’t Cry KyuYoung Ver, link belum dicantumkan. Update Soon. Thanks!



[TWOSHOOT][FF] Hiding My Heart – Two – [END]


Annyeong, Adaya back!. Maaf ya lama sekali updatenya 🙂



Title                 : Hiding My Heart

Author           : Angevine Pontius Fosters ( Adaya )

Main Cast     : Choi Sooyoung as Choi Sooyoung, Choi Siwon as Choi Siwon.

Side Cast       : Im Yoona as Im Yoona, Lee Donghae as Lee Donghae, Max Changmin as Choi Changmin, Tifanny Hwang as Fanny Hwang

Type                : TWOSHOOT

Genre              : Hideous Romance, Unconditional love, New Adult, Friendship, Believe

Playlist          : Hiding My Heart by Adele, She’s Gone by Black Sabbath, Christina Perri by A Thousand Years.

– Last Chapter- 

“You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.” by Sam Keen


Sooyoung POV-

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[Book Review] Allure (Spiral of Bliss, #2) by Nina Lane

Allure (Spiral of Bliss, #2)Allure by Nina Lane
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold. — Zelda Fitzgerald

“The allure is a passage behind the parapet of a castle wall. Great for defense when the enemy is approaching. You know you’re safe on the allure.” She tucks her head beneath my chin, twining her hand with mine. “Like we’re safe with each other.”

“No doubt about it, beauty.” I press my face against her sweet-smelling hair. “You’ll always be my allure.”


“So what are we, then?” “When someone asks who I am, what am I supposed to say?”
“You say, ‘Hi, I’m Liv, Dean’s very hot and sexy lady.’”
I couldn’t smother a giggle. “Seriously.”
“Cuddle bunny?”
“God, no.”
“Valentine? Sweetheart? Girlfriend?”
“Girlfriend.” I guess.”
“Not the best word, but it’ll do in public.” He kissed my temple. “In private, you can just be my beauty.”

Buku ini benar benar menguras emosiku. Gak sedark, segelap buku lain yang bikin air mata bercucuran, tapi cinta Liv dan Dean, usaha mereka untuk membangun rumahtangga mereka lepas dari masa lalu masing-masing, membuat saya seperti hidup diantara mereka, menjadi bagian dari kehidupan mereka.


Dan masa-masa pendekatan dulu yang bikin aku gak berenti grinning.


Before her, I had never known a woman who could make the noise of the world and everyone in it disappear. I’d never wanted to prove myself to anyone the way I did to her. I liked her too much. Liked the way I didn’t feel cold inside when I was with her. The way I didn’t think about anything except her. I liked that she was a mystery, a maze with numerous winding pathways and secret corners. And she was such a relief. Though we met in the fall, she was like spring to me, especially after the darkness of the previous year. Everything about her made me feel good.


“I don’t want a baby.” Dean puts his hand on my belly, spreading his fingers out. “But I do want this baby. I want our baby.”


“What’s your key, Olivia?”
“My key?”
“An old friend once told me that everyone has a key to unlocking their secrets. What’s yours?”
“Um… I’m pretty sure I don’t have a key.”
“I’m pretty sure you do.”
“Well, if everyone has one,” I said, “what’s yours?”
“Ah.” A twinkle flashed in his eyes. “You have to discover that yourself.”
“Then you have to do the same with me.”
“Challenge accepted.” – Arouse, Spiral of Bliss #1

“Remember when you told me everyone has a key to unlocking their secrets?” I whispered. “And you wanted to know what mine is?”
He nodded. “And you told me you didn’t have a key.”
“I think I do.”
“What is it?”
“You.” – Allure, Spiral of Bliss #2


“You’re the first woman who’s ever made my heart beat like that. You’re the first woman I’ve ever wanted to spend all my time with, the only one who could convince me to start a new life. You’re the first woman who’s ever made me genuinely happy. Who makes me glad to be alive, who makes me burn hotter than fire. You’re the first woman who’s ever made me afraid.”

I stared at him. “Afraid?”

“Afraid of how good this is. Afraid it won’t last.” He pushed a lock of hair off my forehead. “Scared to death of losing you.”

“Because you’re the first woman I’ve never wanted to let go.”


“You have to let me fail, Dean, and you have to believe I can get back up on my own.”

“I know you can.”

My heart constricts. “But you have to let me prove it. You have to accept that I’m going to get hurt, but also that I can be self-reliant. You can’t always save me.”


OMFG I m in love with Spiral of Bliss series :*. I love Dean and Liv. Suka banget menyelami pikiran keduanya :), saya banyak belajar dalam buku ini. Hatiku ikut tercabik cabik saat Liv diperlakukan buruk saat di rumah keluarga Dean. Aku jadi bisa memahami kenapa Dean begitu ingin menjauhkan Liv dari keluarganya :(, mereka benar benar menyebalkan. Aku suka cara Liv menerima pendapat buruk keluarga Dean soal dia yang terlihat cuman numpang hidup sama Dean. Aku merasa kesal saat Helen muncul dan sepertinya mengclaim kalau Dean adalah milik dia, tapi di belakang belakang mulai suka karena Helen ternyata ex wife yang keren. Aku bisa memahami semua kepedihan Helen.

Nangis saat Liv keguguran. Aku gak tahu lagi separuh buku aku udah merasa numb bacanya, mereka sudah mencoba menerima kehadiran anak diantara mereka, tapi anak itu harus pergi …


I hate west family, excluding Archer :)…

Our relationship, our love, cannot and will never be perfect. It will, however, always belong only to us in all its flawed, intense beauty. Perfect in its very imperfection.


“The butterflies migrate to survive,” I say. “They need to escape the cold. They need nourishment. And once they have that, they always return home.”


I hadn’t even realized how desperately I’d wanted love. How much we both needed to know that in a world of dark corners and sharp needles, there really is a place where kisses taste like apple pie and where stars spill like sugar across the sky. A place where unknown roads no longer scare you because you have another hand to hold. A place where butterflies always flutter whenever you see each other, and a single touch tells you that you are not alone. A place where every kiss still feels like the first.

In that place of us, Liv and Dean, love has its own poetry and language. Allure, quatrefoil, fleur-de-lis. Right here. PR9199.3 R5115 Y68. My white knight. I’m yours. Give me a kiss. Pie love you. I remember. Professor. Beauty.



PS : EXCLUSIVE Deleted Scene from Allure (#2 Spiral of Bliss Series) by Nina Lane…

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[Book Review] Arouse (Spiral of Bliss, #1) by Nina Lane

Arouse (Spiral of Bliss, #1)Arouse by Nina Lane
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.
—Pablo Neruda

“We are not freakishly happy. We are not freakishly anything. We’re two people who love each other. We had a tough time. We worked it out because we want to be together. Because we can’t imagine being with anyone else. Because we don’t want to be.” – Dane




He didn’t touch me.

Instead he just waited. I had the strange thought that he would wait forever.- Liv POV , Part 1 Chapter 1

SHE didn’t turn away. SHE could have – she had the perfect reason to—but she didn’t.

Instead she looked right at me when I crouched beside her and touched the sleeve of her gray sweatshirt. Instead she brushed the dirt from her hands and told me she was okay. Instead she asked me about medieval knights while I stood between her and the busy street and tried not to stare at her curved body.

Instead she stepped toward me. I had the strange thought that she wanted to come even closer.- Dean POV , Part III, Chapter twenty





You’re mine, Liv. Remember that.- Dean


I kept a big secret from Liv because I wanted to protect her. I only ended up hurting her, driving her to kiss another man. If things hadn’t blown up when they did, who knows what else might have happened…

I want to protect Liv from everything, but I can’t protect her from the truth. No matter how ugly it is. I know that now. I just need to remember it.


Dean is the only man I’ve ever wanted. The only man I’ve allowed into my body, into my heart. The love of my life, who taught me more about happiness and pleasure than anyone else ever has.


“I’ll be here, beauty. Waiting for you.”



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[Book Review] Wallbanger by Alice Clayton

WallbangerWallbanger by Alice Clayton
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Sometimes people just can’t see what’s right in front of them.


“Oh, God.”


“Oh, God.”

Thump thump.

Wallbanger adalah julukan bagi Simon, yang doyan banget nge-bangs wall apartemen tetangganya saat bercinta sama haremnya. Lucu banget ini ceritanya. Si Caroline ini baru pindahan dan merasa terganggu karena setiap malam dengerin suara ‘aneh’ dari tembok kamarnya yang berbatasan langsung dengan kamar Simon. Sangking jengkelnya karena si Caro sendiri nyatanya sudah lama kehilangan O nya, dia dengan nekat nge-bangs pintu apartemen Simon. Hahahha lucu pokoknya pertengkaran mereka pertama kali. Si Caro gak sadar kalo dia sedang pake gaun malam pink yang membuat dia dijuluki Pink Nightie Girl sama Simon saat pertemuan mereka untuk yang kedua kalinya di pesta Benjamin :p.

1. Wallbanger-Pink Nightie Girl

Tahap ini mereka masih saling BENCI. Saling lempar umpatan dan hinaan. Siapa tahu dunia sempit dan banyak sekali kebetulan dalam dunia Simon dan Caro. Bos Caro ini tunangan Benjamin, yang merupakan sahabat keluarga Simon.

Walau benci tapi tetep aja mendamba. Simon kelewat gemes sama Caro, gak tahan sama omelan Caro yang ngatain harem dia. Udah deh dicipok tanpa basa basi. Ditampar tuh si Simon, tapi namanya bukan Caroline kalo gak cipok ganti. Hhahaha sumpah, pada akhirnya mereka memutuskan untuk damai saja. Walau kalo marah Caro ini sering nendang pintu apartemen si Simon.

PS : lucu banget julukan si Caroline sama semua ceweknya si Simon hahaha. Kucingnya sampai ikut mupeng.

2. Tahap Damai

Mereka memutuskan berdamai dan menjadi tetangga dengan normal. Si Simon dah gak sering ganggu Caro sama kebiasaan ngebangsnya, sebagai gantinya Simon memutarkan musik untuk bisa didenger Caro.

Ah ya ada kejadian lucu, diantaranya kucing Caro yang akhirnya ketemu ‘Purina’ dan ngejar ngejar purina yang suka meng-mewong itu sampai ke dalam kamar Simon.

Lalu ada kejadian bocornya saluran pipa bak cuci Caro yang bikin mereka Soak :p. Lalu akhirnya Simon tahu kalo Caro pinter sekali masak.

3. Friend

Tahap ini paling suka. Karena Hate Love mereka udah lebih mengarah ke arah Love. Si Simon ngajak Caro nonton Movie di apartemen dia, sengaja milih movie serem biar bisa curi curi kesempatan. Hahaha bener deh, si Caro yang biasanya suka mimpi di bangs sama Simon gak bisa tidur karena kepikiran Movienya. Jadi deh ditemenin Simon tidur.

Ada juga liburan bareng Mimi, Nick, Ryan, dan Sophie. Jadi maunya kayak 3 date gitu. Si Caro dan Simon punya misi buat menyatukan teman temannya yang salah pasangan. Nah karena pengaruh alcohol si Caro secara gak sadar melemparkan dirinya ke Simon, tapi ditolak sama Simon. Kasihan :), udah frustasi karena lama kehilangan O ehhh ditolak pula.

Ada juga kejadian baliknya si mantan Caro yang pada akhirnya diusir Caro karena salah menyebutkan profesi Caro saat mereka hampir uhuk uhuk, kasihan lagi …

Pokoknya di tahap ini suka banget, si Simon satu per satu mutusin Harem dia karena dia pingin serius sama Caro :). Dia jujur dia gak ngerti gimana caranya pacaran. Karena perofesi dia sebagai fotografer membuat dia gak pernah stay di satu tempat dalam waktu lama… Tahap ini diakhiri dengan penerimaan Caro untuk pergi ke Spanyol dengan Simon.

4.Flaily and Mr. Snorey Pants


Somewhere, a kitty began to call …and an O finally began her journey home.

Tahap ini baca sendiri. Apakah Caro akan bertemu kembali dengan O yang sudah lama pergi? Apakah Simon dan Caroline bisa bersatu? Dan apa benar semua kejadian yang menimpa keduanya hanya KEBETULAN?



Director of the International House Of Orgasms.


ah bagi penggemar novel Twilight tahu dong, Wallabanger ini sebenernya FF dari Twil yang judulnya Edward Wallbanger :), dan kemudian di publikasikan menjadi Wallbanger …

Beberapa Quotes yang aku suka :

as close as friends and lovers could be, there was something about belonging to someone completely that gave you roots—roots you sometimes needed when the world battled against you.

I don’t care how old you are, or what background you come from, there are two universal truths. We will always laugh at… gas if it happens at the wrong time, and we are always curious about what goes on in other people’s bedrooms.

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[Book Review] Cautious (Disastrous, #2) by E.L. Montes

Cautious (Disastrous, #2)Cautious by E.L. Montes
My rating: 5 of 5 stars


Plylist : Lesse Lindh-if you let me in, Adam Lambert – Time For Miracle, Christina Perri-A Thousand Years, Broken Vow-Lara Fabian, Holding On and Letting Go – ross copperman

I hated his lifestyle, but I loved him.


“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feeling most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are distrubing. People are taught that pain is evil and dengerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You fell your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feeling are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” – Jim Morrison






“I did. I missed you so much. I was broken without you, and as much as I was hurt, I thought if I painted a picture of my life without you, it wouldn’t ache as much. I was wrong; it was painful.”



You can’t help who you fall in love with. Yet I had fallen in love with a man that most women would run away from. Even after finding out about it all—his lifestyle, his involvement with the mafia, his knowledge of my brother’s death, and the constant lies—I fell in love with this man who had turned my world upside down in such a short period of time. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t stay away, and I would never walk away again.



“You will make an amazing mother one day. You will have a beautiful baby boy or girl that will love you and look at you as if you’re the most perfect person in the world. I know that losing our baby left a scar that you feel may never be healed, but it will, Mia. Trust me. One day you will have a child, and I hope and pray that you have that child with me.”



“I wanted to get to know you better, and learning some more about you just gave me an idea. Let’s play a game.”
“What kind of game?”
“A get-to-know-you game.”
“You know. We ask each other questions to get to know each other better.” A low raspy laugh escaped his lips. “What? Why are you laughing?” I demanded.
“Nothing, babe. Come here.”
“I’m serious, Marcus.”
“Babe, I thought you meant another game.” His brows wiggled.
“Do you have to turn everything into sex?”
“When you’re involved? Yes.”

“I ask you three simple questions about me. You have to answer two out of three correctly. If you do, you can have me however you like.”
“And if I don’t answer correctly?”
“No sex for two weeks, ah, I’m not finished.” I raised a finger at his dropped jaw. “And you have to take me out on proper dates within those two weeks, so we can work on really getting to know each other.”


“I’m going to take you here.” My head sank back into his shoulder in defeat. “I don’t care who’s around. I’m going to finish this. Do you understand?”

“No more ridiculous bets. You’re mine, completely. I’ll have you whenever and wherever I want.”


ps : Marcus bener bener gak bisa jauhkan tangan dari Mia dan roknya hahahah.Di kantor, di bioskop … MIMISAN!! :P. Setelah puasa ‘make out’ hampir dua minggu, Marcus ngunci Mia dalam kamarnya seharian, lucunya si Jimme bilang ” “Bro, is your dick swollen?” description





Who was I?
What had I become?
I had tried to bury my memories six feet under.
But there was nowhere to run.
I was tired.
I was drained emotionally and physically.
I was done.
I didn’t care to beg, to live.
Lifting the gun, I aimed it at my head, and then I pulled the trigger.



It wasn’t fair to keep her in the dark. Mia didn’t push the issue, allowing me to deal with the problem on my own, but I knew she wanted in, to know more. I loved that about her—how she was so passionate about me that she wanted to be a part of my struggles, stress, and pain.









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[Book Review] Disastrous (Disastrous, #1) by E.L. Montes

Disastrous (Disastrous, #1)Disastrous by E.L. Montes
My rating: 5 of 5 stars


Playlist : Rihanna Feat. Eminem – Love The Way You Lie, Circa Survive – The Greatest Lie, Rolling In The Deep by Adele

Why me?

Then it all came back to me: the day I met HIM.

It would definitely be a rollercoaster, but I was willing to take the ride.


Mia is a brilliant young woman with no family in the world. She is honest, temperamental, over-sensitive, and outspoken. She doesn’t allow people to walk all over her. She has trust issues, and insecurities. Her losses have made her so scared to let people into her heart. Until Marcus stepped into her life.


Marcus is handsome, successful, powerful, the ultimate catch.


“Anything, promise what?”
“Promise me you’ll stay away from him?”
“Away from whom?”
He slowly turned his head to the left, looking by the house. I watched as he gradually lifted his hand to point, but when my eyes followed its direction, I froze.He was standing by the burning house, holding a container of gas in one hand and a box of matches in the other.His legs were spread apart, his shoulders were hunched over, and his eyes were dark. What scared me the most was the wicked smile that spread across his face.


“I’m an evil man. You only know half of me. If you knew the other half, you would run. I’m far from perfect, Mia.”



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[Book Review] Fallen Too Far (Too Far #1) by Abbi Glines

Fallen Too Far (Too Far, #1)Fallen Too Far by Abbi Glines
My rating: 5 of 5 stars




Playlist : Baby Don’t Cry – EXO, She’s Gone- Steel Heart, Sweet Home Alabama, Goo Goo Dolls – Íris, Paramore – The Only Exception

“Blaire, I’m not a romantic guy. I don’t kiss and cuddle. It’s all about the sex for me. You deserve someone who kisses and cuddles. Not me. I just fuck, baby. You aren’t meant for someone like me. I’ve never denied myself something I want. But you’re too sweet. This time I have to tell myself no.”

Motherless, Jobless, Hopeless, Moneyless, Homeless Nineteen years old Blaire need a place to stay. Her father is the only family she have left.



Badass,Fucking handsome, Sexy as hell, gorgeous, delicious,and rich!. Twenty-four year old Rush Finlay is the only child of the famous drummer for Slacker Demon.




“I’m not designer. Get that through your head. I can’t touch you. I want to so damn bad it hurts like a motherfucker but I can’t. I won’t mess you up. You’re… you’re perfect and untouched. And in the end you would never forgive me.”
“What if I want you to touch me? Maybe I’m not so untouched. Maybe I’m already tainted.”
“I’ve been with a lot of girls, Blaire. Trust me, I’ve never met one as fucking perfect as you. The innocence in your eyes screams at me. I want to peel every inch of your clothing off and bury myself inside you but I can’t. You saw me tonight. I’m a screwed up sick bastard. I can’t touch you.”


“No sweet Blaire, you are definitely not a baby. I’m twenty-four and jaded. My life hasn’t been normal and because of it I have some serious screwed up shit. I’ve told you there are things you don’t know. Allowing myself to touch you would be wrong.”
“I think you underestimate yourself. What I see in you is special.”
“You don’t see the real me. You don’t know what all I’ve done.”


“You want to dance?”
“Yes, I do. But I need a shot of courage first and I need someone to ask me to dance.”
“I thought I just asked,” he replied.
“You think that’s a good idea?”
“Probably not.”


I needed to find someone else to focus on. Someone that wasn’t Rush. Someone that was available. It was the only way I was going to keep from falling too far. Rush was dangerous to my heart. If we were going to be friends then I needed to find someone else to focus my attention on. And fast.


We’re friends. I’ll talk and I won’t leave. Just please, stay in here with me.



“I don’t like seeing you touch other women. And when other men grope my ass I hate it. I want it to be you touching me there. Wanting to touch me there. But you don’t and I have to deal with it. Now, let me go!”




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[Book Review] Slammed (Slammed, #1) by Colleen Hoover

Slammed (Slammed, #1)Slammed by Colleen Hoover

My rating: 5 of 5 stars


Playlist : Semua lagu The Avett Brothers

“So you keep your ocean, I’ll take the Lake.”


Layken Cohen, Gadis berusia 18 tahun dan keluarganya harus pindah ke Michigan setelah kematian ayah Lake.

Layken masih tak bisa menerima kepergian ayahnya, kepindahanya dari Texas, dan sangat iri dengan adiknya yang sangat cepat akrab sama lingkungan barunya. Tapi itu tak lama, karena dia bertemu dengan tetangganya, Will Cooper :* .



Esoknya, masih setengah ngantuk dan masih lengkap dengan piyamanya si Lake gak sengaja mengalami kecelakaan kecil, ehh ketemu si Will lagi, diajakin dia ke rumahnya, dibuatin kopi. Si Will ini keliatan banget naksirnya, selalu muncul dimanapun ada Lake. Diam diam si Lake juga mikirin si Will, apa dia single?, umur berapa dia?, kerjaanya apa?, kuliahkah? dll.

Nah, ketahuan ma ibunya Lake, diinterogasilah keduanya, grin :), tipikal mak saya :* . Nah lucunya si Lake ini dikasih nasehat, begini bunyinya :

“There are three questions every woman should be able to answer yes to before they commit to a man. If you answer no to any of the three questions, run like hell.”

“Does he treat you with respect at all times? That’s the first question. The second question is, if he is the exact same person twenty years from now that he is today, would you still want to marry him? And finally, does he inspire you to want to be a better person? You find someone you can answer yes to all three, then you’ve found a good man.”

Hahhaha ini ibu keren sekali. Aku sampai nyatet di post in kamarku hahah,,,

Yah namanya orang madly in love, jadi deh pedekate terus menerus. Will ini agak misterius, dia selalu suka bicara apapun sama si Lake, kecuali soal kedua orangtua dia. Lucu banget mereka ini interaksinya. Cinta semakin bersemi (eaaapalah) di hati Lake, dia suka humor Will, dia suka tangan mereka bergandengan saat mereka ngedate .



Walau gitu si Lake ini juga merasa gak nyaman sama perasaanya. Saat Will nyuruh dia berpuisi di depan orang-orang dia jadi gerogi, nah Will ini dengan kalem mau deh gantiin si Lake :). Dan dia berpuisi judulnya Death. Puisi si Will bikin si Lake berkaca kaca :).

(view spoiler)[Death. The only thing inevitable in life.
People don’t like to talk about death because it makes them sad.
They don’t want to imagine how life will go on without them,all the people they love will briefly grieve but continue to breathe.
They don’t want to imagine how life will go on without them,
Their children will still grow.
Get married
Get old…
They don’t want to imagine how life will continue to go on without them,
Their material things will be sold
Their medical files stamped ‘closed’
Their name becoming a memory to everyone they know.
They don’t want to imagine how life will go on without them, so instead of accepting it head on, they avoid the subject altogether, hoping and praying it will somehow pass them by.
Forget about them,moving on to the next one in line.
No, they didn’t want to imagine how life would continue to go on without them.
But death didn’t forget.
Instead they were met head-on by death, disguised as an eighteen-wheeler behind a cloud of fog.
Death didn’t forget about them.
If they only would have been prepared, accepted the inevitable, laid out their plans, understood that it wasn’t just their lives at hand.
I may have legally been considered an adult at the age of nineteen, but I still felt very much all of just nineteen.
Unprepared and overwhelmed to suddenly have the entire life of a seven-year-old In my realm.
Death. The only thing inevitable in life.

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(view spoiler)[ “Layken?”
“Will! What are you doing here?”
“Lake,” he says hesitantly. “Where…What are you doing here?”
I sigh as I thrust my schedule into his chest. “I’m trying to find this stupid elective but I’m lost,” I whine. “Help me!”
“Lake, no…”
“Will,” I whisper, not able to get a full breath out. “Please don’t tell me-”
“How did I not see this?” he says as he drops his hands and turns toward me. “You’re still in high school?”

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Sebenernya menurut saya sih biasa aja. Hubungan Prof sama Mahasiswa, Guru sama murid. Cinta itu kan gak ngetok pintu atau izin masuk dulu saat mau masukin hati kita. Tapi ya mau bagaimana stereotip masyarakat gitu sih, jadi hal yang menurut cinta benar, bagi moral salah. Terus salah sapa dong? #Salahkan anak anak dewi cinta :p.

“I am sick of wanting
And it’s evil how it’s got me
And every day is worse
Than the one before.”
-The Avett Brothers, Ill With Want

Colleen pinter banget cari lagu, pembukaan Chapter 4 diawali dengan petikan lagu dari Avett Brother yang benar benar menggambarkan hubungan Will dan Lake setelah mengetahui kenyataan mereka adalah guru dan murid.

Si Will ini minta ke Lake untuk gak ambil kelasnya dan menghindari dia, karena merasa hubungan mereka gak pantas!. Ngamuklah si Lake. Merasa kecewa dan sedih karena si Will mencoba menjauhinya diturutin juga tuh kemauan Will dengan pindah kelas. Tapi pilihanya tinggal Russian Lit sama Botani, si Lake milih Rusian Lit, ehhh Will nya gak setuju (maunya apa sih?) dan nyuruh si Lake tetep ambil kelas dia description #labil lo Will.

Si Lake merasa tersiksa dan nyesel banget kenapa dia gak jadi ambil kelas Rusian Lit.nya. Liat si Will ngajar di hadapan dia bener bener menusuk hatinya, karena nyatanya cinta dia buat Will harus jadi rahasia dan dipendam sendiri. Untung ada Eddie dan Gavin deh yang selalu nemenin dan menghibur si Lake. Tapi sebenernya yang tersiksa juga bukan Lake aja, si Will juga looh.

Masalah semakin rumit setelah ibu Lake tahu kenyataanya. Will ini kasihan juga sih. Dia masih muda, yatim piatu, dan harus besarin adiknya, ya tentu dia berat ke kerjaan yang dia dapatin dengan susah. Dia juga butuh biaya buat adiknya, jadi mau gak mau si Lake harus mau antri.

“My life is nothing but responsibilities. I’m raising a child for Christ’s sake. I wouldn’t be able to put your needs first. Hell, I wouldn’t even be able to put them second. You deserve better than third.”

Sebel karena sikap ambigu Will, waktu di kelas giliran si Lake yang baca puisi, dan pemirsa, ingin tahu seperti apa bunyinya ?? Ini dia :

“According to the thesaurus… and according to me… there are over thirty different meanings and substitutions for
the word
(I quickly yell the following words; the entire class flinches- including Will)
Jackass, jerk, cruel, dickhead, unkind, harsh, wicked,
hateful, heartless, vicious, virulent, unrelenting, tyrannical, malevolent, atrocious, bastard, barbarous, bitter, brutal, callous, degenerate, brutish, depraved, evil, fierce, hard, implacable, rancorous, pernicious, inhumane, monstrous, merciless, inexorable.
And my personal favorite—asshole.” – Lake / You rock gurl!!


Demi Tuhan ngakak sejadi jadinya saya waktu kata kata asshole muncul dan tepat saat itu si Lake menatap mata Will. JLEB !! Oh ya masih ada Nick yang ngejar2 si Lake. Tambah runyam saja hubungan Lake sama si Will.





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[Book Review] Then Came You (Gamblers, #1) by Lisa Kleypas

Then Came You (Gamblers, #1)Then Came You by Lisa Kleypas
My rating: 5 of 5 stars


“Only someone who had experienced such bitter despair would be able to recognize it in another.”

London, 1820

” Anakku, dimana kau, aku akan menemukanmu, Mama akan datang, jangan menangis jangan menangis ….”


Yah itu adalah adegan pembuka yang ada dalam novel ini. Lady Lily Lawson adalah wanita yang sangat dipuja oleh kalangan atas London. Cantik, bertubuh indah, mungil, dengan rambut ikal hitam pendek yang menyimpang dari tata aturan masyarakat, pemberani, pintar berjudi, berkuda, dan berburu. Benar benar Heroin yang tak biasa. Namun, siapa sangka dibalik semua itu Lily menyimpan banyak sekali cerita duka?

Diasingkan oleh keluarganya, Lily yang selama ini dibesarkan oleh bibinya mencoba kembali ke tengah tengah mereka untuk menyelamatkan adiknya yang akan dinikahkan dengan Alex, Earl of Raiford. Lily berencana menyatukan Adiknya dengan Zach, yang merupakan cinta sejati Penelope. Walau mereka bersaudara sifat Lily dan Penelope sangat bertolak belaka. Lily pemberontak dan berapi api, seorang pengacau dan selalu menyukai petualangan. Sedangkan Penelope adalah anak kesayangan dan kebanggan kedua orangtuanya, tenang, sopan, dan terkendali. Lily ingin membantu Penelope menemukan jalannya pada cinta sejatinya.

Alex, adalah seorang Earl, dengan tanggung jawab berat di pundaknya. Menjadi seorang yatim piatu sejak usia yang masih sangat belia, Alex harus menjadi seorang Earl dan ayah bagi adiknya yang masih sangat kecil. Alex memiliki masa lalu menyakitkan, karena wanita yang dicintainya, Charlote meninggal karena kegiatan maskulin yang sering dilakukanya. Untuk itu Alex memutuskan mencari wanita yang berkebalikan dengan Caro.

Alex sudah membenci Lily sejak pertemuan pertama mereka. Dia melihat bayangan Caro dalam diri Lily. Sampai pada saat pesta berburu dan keduanya berbincang secara langsung, Alex pada akhirnya mengetahui bahwa Lily adalah kakak dari Penelope.

Hate Lovenya keren banget. Si Lily berpura pura menjadi tamu di Raifrod park dan mengatakan bahwa Zach dan dirinya saling jatuh cinta, agar memiliki alasan untuk mengundang Zach ke kediaman si Alex. Tentunya, Alex sudah mencium usaha Lily untuk menyatukan Zach dan Penelope. Kebencian dan hasrat yang menyatu di hati Alex membuat dia jadi kebingungan dan pada akhirnya mengusir Lily dari kediamanya. Kalo dikata kayak interaksi Lilian ma Westclif sih bener juga, tapi menurutku Alex bener bener lebih kejam, lol.

Si Lily yang kelewat benci dengan Alex menculik Henry, adik Alex yang berusia 12 tahun, dan membawanya kembali ke London. Si Henry ini benar benar mengagumi Lily, dan Derek Carven, sahabat Lily yang merupakan pemilik club no satu di London. Dengan bujukan manis, si Henry mau ikut Lily ke London dan sementara dititipkan ke club Carven sampai Alex muncul.

Ikan memakan umpannya. Alex datang dengan amarah ke rumah lily di London, hanya untuk disekap oleh Lily di tempat tidurnya. Hehehhe lucu mereka ini. Si Lily sengaja nyulik Henry biar Alex meninggalkan kediamanya sehingga si Zach dan Penelope bisa kawin lari.

Esoknya setelah dilepas, si Hanry pulang ke rumah bareng adiknya. Di sana Lady Lawson, ibu Lily udah kebingungan, tapi Alex yang udah mengetahui kenyataannya santai aja, dan malah merencanakan pembalasan untuk Lily.

Pembalasanya apa? Baca sendiri…

Asik banget pembalasan Alex ini.

Apa sebenarnya rahasia Lily yang membuat dia selalu berjalan dalam tidur. Apa sebenarnya topeng dibalik semua senyum lily, dan apa sebenarnya hubungan Derek dengan lily?

Dan siapa itu Nick? yang selalu disebut Lily dalam tidurnya …

Pecinta Marcus dan Lilan pasti suka dengan novel ini …

Lamaran Alex keren sekali hahahha …

“You’ll be my wife,” he said inexorably.
“You want to own me!” she accused, trying to crawl away from him.
“Yes.” He flung her down on the bed and flattened his weight on her. As he spoke, his hot breath fanned
her mouth and chin. “Yes. I want other people to look at you and know you’re mine. I want you to take
my name and my money. I want you to
live with me. I want to be inside you . . . part of your thoughts . . . your body . . . all of you. I want you to
trust me. I want to give you whatever elusive, impossible, goddamned mysterious thing it is you need in
order to be happy. Does that frighten
you? Well, it frightens the hell out of me. Don’t you think I’d stop feeling this way if I could? It’s not as if
you’re the easiest woman in the world!!”

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